Jason and I found a fertility doctor after searching and researching we made our decision. It is a personal decision between each couple but after thinking about the journey we are about to partake I decided I want to blog what is going on daily/weekly or whenever I feel like I need to get it off my chest.
Jason and I have been married for six years we have been trying to start a family with no success we have went through the adoption process just to be scammed. After much thought Jason and I decided to start saving for IVF about a year ago and we have finally saved up enough with the help of friends,family, and even complete strangers all these people have touched us dearly.
I decided to tell about this journey through a blog so friends and family can understand what the process is of IVF.
Jason and I decided in the beginning we did not want the stress of if we do or if we do not get pregnant so this blog is just to help others understand the process I am not quite sure if I want to share the outcome on the internet just yet.
This is a way that everyone that wants to know about the journey can read our blog instead of the stress of answering questions during a stressful but exciting time.
I made my decision well Jason and I did after researching the specialist in IVF we made our decision based on our comfort and just pure gut feeling that this is the doctor. I started to share with others what we have been going through the years of trying and being disappointed. The tears of each time that I would pee on a stick and just want to see the two lines or the positive sign and each time the negative sign or one line would appear.
I hate the feeling of telling everyone bad news not just to friends and family but to my husband was the hardest. The feeling of you just want to stay locked in the bathroom but you can hear the voice on the other side of the door "So what does it say?" I learned very quickly that disappointment came with each peed on stick. I didn't realize that I would relive it with every family member and friends the same question would come up "So are you pregnant?" The answer I would have to give would sting each time it came out of my mouth.
If you have not guessed by now I hate to disappoint others and myself. I always thought you want something bad enough and either you will get it if you work hard enough and or you can save up to buy what you wanted. This is not always true sometimes there is a lesson that comes with the price you pay to get what you want and we have learned this the hard way.
Do not get me wrong I was scammed out of $20,000.00 for an adoption that never happened I went after them in a lawsuit so lawyers equal more money plus the interest on the adoption that we took out is a pretty hefty loan on our second equity of our home but we had made that decision just to have the agency file bankruptcy and guess who was included. You are correct us this equal no money and a waste of money for lawyers.
This gives you an idea of the little background we have been through. I want to go back to the best part this year 2011 and IVF.
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